Just like everyone else I fell in love with Adele’s new song Hello but it wasn’t until today that it took on a deep meaning for me. It’s often easy to get caught up in your pain and that’s all you can see. The grief/pain takes a hold of you and it won’t let go. After my Mom died I didn’t think I was going to make it. I wasn’t even sure I wanted to.
Today I realized that I’m on the other side of the grief and pain. I’m no longer in those bad places. While I’m not sure of the future my feet are firmly planted into the ground. My foundation is no longer shaky as I’ve swept it away. Now the task is to rebuild a much stronger and stable foundation so that when life hits me again I won’t fall, or at least as hard and long.
I’ve been on the other side for way to long. I’ve purposely locked myself in that place because I didn’t think I deserved anything better nor did I think I could get anything better. So I tolerated the pain because that was how I survived.
A million little stars lit up my sky today. It’s a great feeling to realize that you’ve moved forward and are now just looking outside looking in. During the grief and pain I held onto dear life to what I now realize was hope. Sometimes that’s all we have to hang onto. It doesn’t matter how big or small that mustard seed of faith is, as long as it’s there you’ll weather the storm.
So if you’re struggling just hang in there. There is another side that we often can’t see. You’re not alone, as I have been there and so many others have/are.